Tina smith Posted December 6, 2004 Share Posted December 6, 2004 I guess Im still a little confused about my situation. Ever since my boyfriend broke up with me for his ex (other than our talks about the break up and getting our stuff back) I havent talked to him. I havent heard a thing about him, although I told everyone not to mention anything about him to me ever. Not even if hes walking down the street.....Id rather imagine he doesnt exist anymore. So its been 2 weeks and 3 days since the breakup. I never really thought hed call, or Id see him, because Im avoding any place hed be until Im healed a bit, but Its weird. Hed call me a thousand times a day. In the morning, at lunch and at night 40 times if we wernt together, which most of the time we'd be together. So every morning I wake up and realize he didnt call and get this awful feeling. Im doing way better than a week ago, but it still really hurts. I dont understand how this could be happeneing. I mean, how can the world work this way? How can he hurt me more than Ive ever been hurt in my life and just move on with her like nothing happened? How can he just brush off the past 7 months of his life with me like it never happened? How can he get what he wants in the end and I have to suffer with the pain? Why does this stuff happen? Its really weird, I have this strong feeling that its not going to work out for him in the end and hes going to end up alone, but Im trying to imagine that it will work out. That everything will work out between them. It forces me to move on. But who knows. Maybe it will work out. Maybe it will be them together in the end and me alone. I know I dont deserve this. I was nothing but good to him (and believe it or not, he was nothing but perfect to me until the day he told me all this....thats why I was and still am in shock) I hate that something that felt so right is wrong. I miss him a ton, but Im getting use to my life without him. Its not like Im really living my life.....more like trying to get through the day. Knowing that in 3 months, maybe I wont feel so bad. I feel empty. Its such a crappy feeling. Im on here everyday looking for answers, or a inside look at why he did this. But no ones situation is the exact same as your own. So im left with this huge question mark in my head. Quote Link to comment
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