Raaawr Posted November 23, 2011 Share Posted November 23, 2011 I posted another thread here the other day about my girlfriend wanting a break with me and there being alot of mixed signals from her and how I was confused and how a break up turned into a 1 month break into a 2 month break. Its confusing yes I know. Last night I went out with my friends, we had a few drinks and watched a football match. I came home and couldnt sleep and began thinking about her. I had a revelation. I began to understand the reason we are here and its simple, I havent convinced her that I still love her like I used to, I havent made her feel loved. Its true, I havent, I stopped complimenting her, not out of a decision to be nasty but it just slipped my mind completely. I got lazy. I hate myself for it now (dont get me wrong, by no means was I a jerk to her or rude or abusive but I didnt make her feel special, thats my short coming, I should have continued to make her feel like the best girl in the world but I stopped along the way, I was still nice to her, I still did things for her but I didn't make her believe she was everything to me), after 2 days of not eating and barely sleeping and crying over possibly losing her I have realised I havent lost her yet. She has to talk to me at the end of this break to let me know whats happening and thats where my chance lies. I have to show her Im willing to improve and that I can bring back everything that was good in our relationship. I can do it now, I know I can, I understand the problem for the first time. My only worry is that she denys me this chance. We are on a break to see if she is happier without me, she hasnt said I make her unhappy, that word was never used, I do make her happy, but she feels she should be happier. So, how do I do it? How do I go about showing her I mean what Im saying? Do I wait for the 2 weeks to be up or do I text her tomorrow asking if I can meet her on Sunday instead? Itll cut the break in half but I need her to know I mean what I say. Just to add, on writing this I have eaten, not much but I have eaten and I feel quite calm, almost at peace with a quiet determination to make this girl my number 1 again and make sure she knows it. Emotions are not running high for me. I think ill make her something, I used to make her little miniature models of animals. I think if I was to make one of them she might see some of who I was and show her I am sincere. Link to comment
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