What...What To Do?

[FoundYet]

This is a work in progress that I need to get off my chest. I just keep changing it because I would come back to this poem taking more notes every time the ex came up.

 

 

WHAT...WHAT TO DO?

 

What do I do?

Do I grow a pair and yell, 'You can't have her too!'

She wants ME. She cares about ME. She LOVES me.

But where are you?

Gone!

And, who are you?

Just no one from my past. Yes, I said it. You're no one anymore!

She loves me and wants me and it has nothing to do with you!

 

What have I done?

I met a women and I didn't think of you.

I met a women who made me fuzzy, warm and tingle inside.

She, who always smiled and laughed and looked at me for me,

Healing the pain I held deep down, along the wayside

And I was loosing myself in her too.

 

What did I do?

I thought of you and she saw it too.

She saw it in my eyes.

I quickly turned scared, but saw into her's too.

I noticed that light, the twinkle I loved,

Slowly slide away by my stupid, quick notion of you.

The quieter she got, the more pain I felt, but she stayed,

Still trying to smile, with butterfly's inside, still holding onto hope,

Waiting for me to concur

And push away my past of you.

 

What happened?

Still thought of you.

I pushed her down then pushed her away.

She loved me! And where were you!?

You left, moved on. I left and tried to moved on too...

But this, this is the one I lost because of you.

I've lost relationships cause I wasn't ready,

But her, she was different from you.

For when I was with her, I was ready.

She, for once, made me forget about you.

But then, when alone on my own,

Where were you?

Still in the dark, holding me down,

Still in my past, clutching my heart, too.

But she, she got through just for a moment.

A moment that scared and frighten and exhilarated me

and over-powered you.

 

What did I lose?

I lost my chance at happiness and love.

You broke my heart, so then, I broke her's too

Because I thought of you.

 

What do I do?

I LOST my chance at HAPPINESS and LOVE!!

I have no desire for you.

I now have no need to think of you.

Now, I can move forward,

But, hopefully, with her too.

 

~Found Yet?~

 

(Just change the she's to he's and it will work just fine, too.)

[katzzz1]

this just made me cry....in a good way though, I liked it because I can relate. thanks

[FoundYet]

Kazzz1, I empathize with you.

 

I'm still struggling to reach that last section. Letting go of a memory is so hard to do. Or maybe just the waiting is.