A place to call home.

[Pandaj]

To me, inside isn't even as far as I can see.

 

Moreover, I only visualize behind the shoulder.

 

Every day the world gets colder.

I've never felt very bold or,

ever dealt with many other souls before...

 

Poor she, didn't know much better,

now he's gone and left her...

 

His actions were hasty, memories

hazy, motivational dive lazy. Pay me

back later, but not this lifetime.

 

Say goodbye to my mind. Splattered

upon the pavement, accelerated

adjacent.

 

Same world different story, only this

time she came off just a little

whoreish.

I was still just a bear eating

porridge.

 

Young but old enough to know better.

 

She was still twice my age and then

 

some, I could have been her grandson.

 

Remembering my life before I wanted

to save face, but instead I made grace.

 

I hadn't learned anything, I thought.

My body and brain fought. But it was more than that. I really always loved her, I just desired reciprocation.

 

Conceded, I thought my feelings were tangible, when to everyone else they're barely imaginable. I tried to make crying fashionable, attempt laughable.

 

I had to cope somehow, seeking out extra-personal mental affection. But most things I wanted she didn't mention.

 

I am awake now, I am what matters. We cant see through your eyes or truly share your feelings.

 

Everything is in and of myself, tell me a lie baby please. I need your love like a disease.

 

I'm here now, finally...