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Day 6 Saw my ex accidently at work. I am trying to avoid him totally. I felt afraid, inconfident and miserable, I tried to avoid him seeing me and I avoided looking at him too. I think I am doing fine although I still feel really empty and alone ... I really need someone close to me and loads of love ...

rachellsa I wish you best of luck, keep going, you can make it

Day 2 I think unfriending my ex and all his close friend and family from FB was kind of a relief. I felt as if I am not being followed by anyone, I also deactivated the account all together to avoid seeing him totally as I still have lots of mutual friends with him. Waking up today I was kind of well because I did not think about him, I think what helped me is that I had an appointment with a friend and had to wake up early to talk to her. I also had a good night yesterday after talking to one of my colleagues about some work which kind of distracted my thoughts before I slept. Still, checking his horscope, googling what could be wrong about me, and fantasizing about meeting him at work which I dread the most. Luckily we are in holidays for a couple of weeks but the idea that I will have to see him one day and may be talk to him frightens me like hell ... I know for me avoidance is the remedy but it will be hard to not see him or know his news altogether ...

Day 1 I accept the challenge. Broke up with my finacee 3 weeks ago. I tried hard to have no contact whatsoever but its really hard, I find myself continuously checking his FB. Unfriended him yesterday to stop this but the bad thing now is that this breakup just made me remember my past fiancee who seemed to break up with me for quite similar reasons. All these memories back to my head made me even check my first ex FB to see how he is going in his life although I did unfriend him as well. Feeling pathetic, extremely insecure. Continuously asking myself what did I do wrong to go through this. Afraid of having it happen to me over and over again. The thought of a new relationship just scares me a lot. I feel as if I need lots of reassurance after being hurt twice. The last relationship lasted only for around a month but the effect of break up is so bad especially that he works with me so I will have to see him from time to time. I hope I can keep up with the challenge.