LostSoulTrain

Day 4 She was first thing on my mind this morning. It still hurts knowing that she turned her back on us. I still wonder whether I pushed her away for good by saying this was the last chance I was willing to give to us.

Day 3 Feeling hollow and betrayed. I know it was probably for the best but still it hurts. I wonder though whether it was right thing to close all communication lines and tell her I wish to move on or would it be better if I said that she can contact me only if she is ready to commit for real

Day 2 We had many breaks in the past but this was first time I told her it is last chance I was willing to give to us and that I wish us to be in complete NC so that I can move on. I also told her I will block her as in the past she used to send late night texts which did not elicit response and looked as if she is trying to mess with my head. While I know this is for my best a part of me wonders whether I pushed her away for good by saying I wish to move on. It was strange seeing she did not even wish me merry christmas