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Day 30!! Feel sad bc it's Xmas. Miss her still. But I'm excited to move forward w my life.

Day 15 Ah sometimes I lose track of the days. I know when I'm counting and posting on ENA it's been one of the harder days. She kept popping up in my mind all day td like an annoying bug. Just kept having memories of her us and all the cute fun things she/we did. I'm at the point where I'm angry disappointed disgusted with her. I know this is part of the process of eventually letting go. I just try to stay busy and my mind off it as much as I can. The emotions will take their toll and they do. Sometimes I get overwhelmed by the pain and the depression that I want to just lay at home and do nothing. It feels great to do that sometimes it gives me a chance to regroup and gather my thoughts. I was productive at work and went to the gym. Here's to a good week moving away from her and forward towards achieving goals

Btw there's a cute girl who is showing clear interest in me talking her out for drinks which will almost definitely lead to sex. She is my brothers friend and she has made it clear she just wants to have fun and isn't looking for anything serious. Anyone have any advice? Do you think it will help me take my ex off the pedestal and show me there are other fun girls out there? I'm nervous I'll just think of my ex the whole time and I'm afraid ill think of her during the sex.

Day 12 NC The last couple of days have been a roller coaster ride. I find myself missing her which is natural and normal. But that quickly turns into dwelling and focusing on what was good, what went wrong, etc. I think so early in the process this is very detrimental to personal growth. I realize the emotions will take their toll and the moods will be up and down. But it's very important to try and gather your thoughts and emotions (sadness, grief, anger, confusion. All normal) quickly and refocus them to something positive. If you focus on your goals (short term and long term) you will be doing yourself a tremendous service in moving forward and onward. I'm not saying act like its not happening but it's important to focus on yourself even if your emotions and thoughts are disagreeing. People say week 2 is rough and boy are they right. Here's to a good rest of the weekend and a good week 3 of NC full of personal growth, achievement, and moving on

Day 7 NC One week wow. What a week. Feel a lot better. Decision was right one. Excited about other things in my life. Read book called NLP technology of achieving if u want healthy way to change your attitude. You'll see NC and everything else you do for you as easy.

Day 6 NC The last week has been crazy. A ton of emotional ups and downs. I know BU / NC and getting over her / out of my mind are best things for me as an individual. That keeps me strong. The last two days have been manageable and I feel like I'm getting my emotions under control finally. I feel so happy and positive about what's to come for me but the feeling of loss and emptiness is holding me back from doing those things this second. I can't wait until I feel the drive and motivation w out the pain. I slept in my bed for first time last night and slept great. I fell asleep reading after mentally telling myself "I give myself permission to sleep wholly and peacefully." I woke up at 8am and fell back asleep reading. It's then that I had a dream about her. She was so close I could almost kiss her I woke up feeling that terrible sinking feeling again. I simply told myself "it's natural. Your subconscious feels a hole and tries to fill it. It is the last to let go. But I am a strong willed human being and I will get it under control." I then went on to read my lists of why it didn't work, what I'm destined for and what goals I want to achieve in my future both short term and long term. I felt completely better and am ready to take on my Sunday in a positive way, in a way that will bring me closer to achieving my goals. Here's to week 2 of NC being better but more importantly a week that brings me as an individual closer to my goals

Day 4 NC Ahh what a great day. Went to work made a sale relaxed w my friends and my brother. Had deep conversations w all of them. Connected w them in ways I haven't in months. Started reading a truly amazing read called NLP The New Technology of Achievement. Everyone and anyone should read this to start feeling better ASAP. Took a step back and looked at my situation as my friend and not as myself. Did wonders for me. Let me take her right off the pedestal I had her on. I realized as a friend I would just say "feel better. Do what's right for you. Use it as a learning experience and realize now is your chance to grow and become the person you're supposed to be. Everything happens for a reason and this split is the best thing that ever happened to you." Positive attitude positive results my friends. Let your pain be a source of personal growth and not force u to regress into a bad place (contacting them and or clinging to hope). Here's to day 5 being just as good if not better. Going to relax get breakfast at my favorite place. Hang w my dad. Read my book. Go to gym. Go watch football w friends and go out drinking to flirt w some girls. Can't wait!

Day 3 NC Today Today was rougher than yesterday. I came off the high that realizing that ending things was best thing possible. Have run myself in circles in my head today though. Thinking what was real what was just confusion between us. Felt heartbroken all day again. Had a tough time focusing and being myself. If she reached out I'd tell her to go **** herself. No doubt NC is best thing to do. I wish it was easier to move on. I'm doing the right thing though and that feels great here's to day 4 being a better one.

Day 2 NC Not sure what's going on td but I feel great w moving on bc i know its so right for me as an individual. If she contacted me today I would not take her back and would tell her this time apart has made me realize im deff not ready for a serious relationship either and I don't want to get involved w someone not healthy and who can't give me what I want. I realize I never had a real relationship w this girl and we never had true love although im convinced it would come down the line. it was Just passion obsession and I think it could have been great one day. I miss her like crazy though. Haven't slept right and eaten in a week. I think about her a lot and miss talking to her seeing her kissing her and holding her. I know it was bad timing for us both and, we never really had a real relationship (never called her my gf mostly banging and sleeping 2g both really busy,did sms all the time 24/7, never met my parents or friends, a lot of dates and sex, were happy together, she started saying she loves me really fast talked about seeing herself marry me etc). this makes me feel like down the line when we're both healthy and ready for a relationship it could be great. Neither of us were this time. Oh well I'll get over it w NC and a couple weeks / months.

Day 1 Check out my post titled "NC DAY 1 join me help me" in break up section if u want to read up on it. Feel horrible. Barely slept haven't eaten much. Couldn't focus at work. Left to just cry in my car bc I missed her so much. Feeling good about my decision though. Deleted her off all social media. Can't stay off this site. Keeping me sane knowing we're all going through this together.