Day 1
I feel like i was always the one who was going to hurt her, after two years being together she has to go off to college 25 hours away. She always promised me she will try her hardest to make things work and pull through for me and i believed her. 3 weeks into our long distance she up and out of nowhere lost all feelings for me, we had a small fight prior but it definitely could not have contributed to her escalating to the level of having no feelings for me. She started showing me she doesnt love me 3 days ago. And i cannot believe it. I tried desperately for the last two days calling her, skyping her, texting her. But she is so so cold. We talked as friends and she says she can't do it anymore because she feels like im always trying to get back together and she doesn't want that. I did nothing wrong to her for her to have no feelings at all so soon in a two year relationship. There may be another guy is the only thing im thinking makes sense, but shes not even one to do something like that. I think all i can do at this point is NC and hope and pray she realizes she still loves me.. she comes back to town in 11 days.. i don't know what to do when that time comes. We lost our virginities to one another, we have so many amazing times and reading letters she wrote me just a month ago kill me that it can all go away so fast. Just hoping and praying for the best.
