Veneficus

I've been slacking. So far it's been a week, there were a few times he'd contacted me trying to create small talk. I also had to retrieve my things from him, and in that process of retrieval, he'd given me a really big, tight hug. Not the kind you give just a friend, or a family member. I can't explain it. I feel like this is full of mixed signals. Either way, it's been a week. I feel a lot better, I just have moments where life feels empty inside. It's hard to do, and he's left me alone as I have done him, but it doesn't mean I don't think about, or miss his companionship constantly...

I'm going to start this, I started today so. Day 1 - It's pretty painful, but in order for him to find himself, and I myself, before we can work on us together (and that's the plan, so we've discussed..) I think this is the best for us. I love him dearly, but he has issues and I mine, and this is probably going to give us a faster recovery with ourselves. I've already begun my changes, working out, got a new job today, cleaning more...things I just need to do. I've begun to pray again too, and while I considered myself apathiest, I'm starting to find my faith again. Here's to hoping I can do this successfully, the first time around. No matter how difficult it is.