Kplum92

Hang in there!! Like you said earlier in your post it may just be because he does not like being alone.... This girl is most probably a rebound type of thing.... Keep strong and don't give him what he wants, or the satisfaction that he knows your thinking of him. What is keeping myself going is the thought that if he realises, okaaay I do actually miss her, I want her back then he will contact you. In the mean time, keep your head high (I know, I know, soooo much easier said than done!?) And when/if he comes into your shop, just act professional or better still disappear out the back (if you have the opportunity to do so!!)......... I am sorry to hear that things sort of backfired in your face a little here, it really does sound like a complete irrational decision on his behalf to behave like he has, most probably due to him being afraid of being alone.... I hope you find as each day passes it gets easier.. Prove him wrong you can do it!!! God, this feels so much like a game sometimes!?...... DAY 4 Back home from the night shift... Nearly broke down last night. No particular reason at all, just went to the bathroom, and had to control hysterical tears from blubbering down my face whilst I was going for a wee!! No idea what came over me. I think I am still in shock/denial over all this (I am the dumpee here..) Still secretly hoping he will give in to this NC and then I am able to have the strength NOT TO REPLY, until we see each other again on the pre arranged date of the 29th July.... AAAAH this is so hard. Bring on day 5......

Day 3 Feeling.... okaaaay... Today should be a relatively easy day, doing a night shift tonight so about to crawl back into bed and sleep for a few hours. Missing him very much right now, although I did do a workout today, so feeling good about myself in that respect. Oh how much you just wish they would come grovelling back to you and then having the strength to not reply to them... Will have to cross that bridge when it comes (if it ever does...WISHFUL THINKING AGAIN!!) Keep strong everyone xx

Coming up to end of DAY1 and first post on this forum.... First of all, hello everyone Snippet of my story... I am the 'dumpee' of a 4 year relationship. Started out 'close distance' for the first 2, then after we finished college together, I moved to London to pursue a university course in Midwifery, from then we have been living apart (3 hours drive away). Anyway, he initiated the break up, still wanted to be best friends, still wanted to see me, speak with me, be intimate with me... And as of up until yesterday I had agreed to all this in the hope that he would change his mind. From reading threads on here for a few days now, I realise this will not work .... NC is the way to go. Its been a week since we broke up.. I am hurting like hell, an emotional wreck... But i cannot justify being at his beck and call when it pleases him, it will make it just too easy for him through this break up, and will never know what it feel like to truly miss me (main factor in break up.. the distance and hardly seeing each other... our diaries of work/uni/placement collided most the time.) and I have come to realise that in the long run, I will end up being the one who gets hurt the most... Because of this false hope of 'if I give him what he wants, he will change his mind' So last night, we had a conversation about all this, he reluctantly agreed with the NC until the 29th July... He said that it's will hurt him so much, and that he still loves me so much. Just that the relationship didn't really work or feel 'real' enough for him because of the time apart...NC till 29th July because we have also promised each other to go on our booked holiday together on this date.... Not sure if that is the right decision or not... I hope this period between now and then is a long enough time of NC for him to really think and realise he made a mistake?! .... I know, I know, this is what everyone is wishing for at this point right, and I shouldnt get my hopes up, or pin all my might onto this fact? Yes I want reconciliation over this holiday, to start afresh, from the beginning... I also want to concentrate on myself. Work on my body image, look better and more appealing in that dreaded bikini! Once I become independent and able to move on within myself, then I can allow him to come to me if he wants to.... My aims for now..... 1. Keep NC, and TRY to ignore/not respond to any attempt of contact from him. 2. Concentrate on uni, nearly coming up to finishing second year now. 3. Bye bye muffin tops, hello flat, toned stomach and radiant skin.... (knock his Calvin Klein's off come August basically!!!) 4. Be prepared to move on if none of this works out. Gain confidence in self. You guys on here are inspirational, some of you have so much will power and I admire that... Also great truthful (maybe sometimes harsh but fair too) advice... AAAH I am scared, do I have the will power and guts?! (maybe today only felt relatively easy because I have been at work? And my, what a damn busy shift today was.....hmmmm ) xx