it still seems like a bad dream and that im living day by day in a haze. i thought you wouldve contacted me by now - at least after i laid everything out on the line. i feel so lost and lonely without you. i wish i could share all the details about my day and spend my weekends with you like we always did. do you miss me at all? do you hate me?
i guess no contact is easy when you refuse to even acknowledge or speak to me.
i keep hoping youll come around soon. our relationship must have been stronger than this?
im more than halfway through and it's still a struggle. i dont see myself getting better after 30 days.
i need the hope to die. it's hard when there is no closure.
sigh.
