Day 4
Well today was really hard, it marked the day that makes it a week since we broke up officially. Today was very hard...I cried so much today and couldn't help but blame myself for everything. That maybe if I had just waited a few more days and stuck it out maybe it would of worked out, if I had just tried that bit harder I don't know everything seems to be creeping up on me. It feels like I could of done so much more even though I know I did a lot my mind is playing very harsh games with me. I know im suppose to be doing this nc thing but what makes it hard is that I don't think my ex is even thinking about contacting me...he's probably just fine and that kills me. I hope nc helps me move on quicker because this feeling is soooo horrible. I got final exams next week and I just can't seem to focus. This is horrible!