Nagant

Today marks 4 weeks of No Contact for me, so I figured I'd post to give everyone else some inspiration, ha! I still have no desire to really contact her (at times I do) because I'm pretty sure it's over for real this time. We broke up once before about exactly 1 year before the new breakup. I still miss her, but I think this might have been for the best for both of us, even if it's still hard to 100% accept. Here are the things that have helped the most: -No Facebook: I broke down once or twice and looked at her page, and luckily those times I didn't see anything too bad. I still felt weak looking, so whatever you do don't look! -Not seeing her in person at all: I live an hour away from her, so I don't ever have to worry about running into her. This helps alot too. I feel like if I did see her now though I might break down, ha! -NC: Just don't do it. No matter what. Lately I've been having the slight urge to call or text and ask what she's been up to for 4 weeks, but I know it's a terrible idea. Not knowing what she's up to has really helped, and allowed me to try and live my life as I should right now: without worrying what she is doing. Just stick to it everyone, no matter how hard it is!

16 days of NC. 4 weeks since the breakup. NC is helping for sure! Though if I saw her in person I think I would have a bit of a breakdown, ha! (But that's part of NC too!). I don't really have a desire to talk to her anyway, since I know there's nothing to be done at this point, so that's also good. I can say that I do still miss her, which I feel is 100% normal, so I accept that. Overall, the worst part about this is that she hasn't tried to contact me yet. That feeling of rejection is pretty hard to deal with, but I know understand that I am feeling better and time is helping.

It's been a week since the official break up and 1 day since I last contacted her. I'll have to post the whole situation sometime, but basically we broke up for a second time (the relationship was about 2 years with a brief couple of months where we were broken up and living together). Right now I know I'm doing this more out of the hope that she'll get ahold of me in the future so we can reconciliate, but hopefully I can work on that with time. It's hard right now just because I recently moved home living in my college town for two years straight. I don't really know anyone here anymore and don't have a job, so not much to do during the day, ha! Hopefully that situation will improve!