Mochahantas

Day 7 - i give up on everything. woke up this morning still crying from my dream. I dreamed that he had someone else already, but then again..thats a dream that happens every night. my heart still is thumping in my chest even as I type this now. I give up on life. I'm never going to get better and hes living his life to the fullest. You would think after a year and some change, he would at least call just to ask if I'm still breathing. How could someone who claimed they loved you be so cold? He really doesn't care anymore and now I'm finally feeling it it...i wonder if I'm still in the denial stage if I think about us being together from time to time..I'm a freaking wreck..no wonder he doesn't want me ='(

Day 3 =/ This freakin sucks SO bad. I wish he knew at least an ounce of how I feel! he ignored my texts / phone calls...everything ! So I decided on NC. Smh,i hope this works for me. I think out of everyone on here I am by far the WORST at NC. How does someone you share a year and some months of your life with suddenly NOT care anymore?! Like, he doesn't even check and see if I'm alive or dead. It just hurts. I can day though, you guys on here (although I don't know any if you personally lol) have and still is helping me each and every day with your posts. Yall kinda feel like the friends I never had. So thank yall =') ! Will def be back to hopefully post my story and updates....