TigerCourage

NC day 17: I woke up ok. Everything was cool until I started thinking about you... I can't stand it anymore. Someone please wake me up! I saw some photos of you at the beach which a friend uploaded on tuenti... Damn, I really miss you so god damn much... I need to kiss you, I need your hugs and your smile. I need YOU! It feels so bad, I feel worse than the first day. Why do you have to go out with that rebound? Why don't you realize that you need me and that dude doesn't give a CRAP about you! Why don't you give me a phone call to tell me to meet up so we can speak seriously!? I need you and I miss you and I wanna hold you, I wanna kiss you... you were my everything and I really miss you! I'd love to start a NEW and IMPROVED relationship with you. I won't repeat the same mistakes ever AGAIN. Damn girl, why do I love you so much? Why did you have to be the girl of my dreams? Why did you had to be everything I wanted in a girl?... How can you punish me so badly after I gave it all to you and made our life a dream come true? In this case I'd prefer to have painless death but not this pain in my heart... it hurts so damn much and I can't stand the pain...

Day 14: Just woke up thinking about you again. I feel I'm getting stronger. Yesterday I went to a friend of yours to fix her PC and you told her to take me to your home so we can all have coffee. I didn't go! It all makes sense... you ask about me a lot, you wrote that sad stuff on your blog, you try to get better with my best friend, you invite me to your house to drink coffee... then why the heck are you still with that rebound kid and don't try to call me or something????

Day 13: I've tried distracting myself with friends, reading, going out etc... Thing is I can't stop watching your profile or reading your blog especially after you wrote that you miss things and people from the past. Bad thing is you spoke with my best friend and you still sed that you're going out with that rebound guy. Damn I wish I could just delete you from my head for some time... I wish you would admit you were wrong, come crying to me so I should take you back... I just love you and I know I would take you back if I see you really meaning it! I need a good cry...