Mr. Confused

Thank you for the reply, I appreciate a different perspective. The fact is that I wanted to be there for her and she wouldn't let me. I made sure I would tell her that all the time too but I just never got through to her. When her grandma had that unfortunate heart trouble she was hospitalized for a couple weeks in the city I live in. So she was around a lot but never bothered to stop by and that's when she wouldn't return any of my communication attempts. I also realize that this is not the end of the world but it's just tough being lonely again. Even when I couldn't see her at least we would talk on the phone for an hour or so. I was just so happy with her. Oh well, life goes on. Like you said, if it's meant to be maybe we'll get back together. You did hit the nail on the head with one remark though. I know she wants to know what else is out there cause we've talked about that before and I was the first boyfriend she's ever fallen in love with. I just want you to know that I appreciate the response and all of the good hearted people on this site.

I just recently got dumped....here's the story. Met this girl in my final year of school, she is still in school presently. I nor her had been in a relationship for a couple years and I had decided that it was time I find a girl as I'm 23 already. Well needless to say the last 6 months of school were great, we were together all the time. I was completely hooked on her and I know she was completely hooked on me. Anyway you get the picture, I was in love and thought this girl was the one. Well I graduated in May and took a job about 45 miles away from her. Begininning of the summer was fine and then all hell broke loose. She had 3 different people close to her pass away within about a 6 week span. She has never dealt with this stuff well and always kept her emotions inside and never let me know them. Well needless to say these deaths killed a lot of plans we had for weekends. Add that to the fact that I was working till late at night and she was working early in the morning so our schedules really conflicted. We still talked on the phone everyday and even through all of this everything still seemed cool and she always made sure she would say she loved me all the time. Well about 2 weeks after the last funeral her grandma had heart failure and was sent into intensive care. I had talked to her the night before and everything was cool but little did I know that I wouldn't talk to her again for a month. I would not have even known about her grandma's situation if it had not been for her roomate telling me. I tried numerous calls and emails but none got responded to. I also had bought two tickets to a Goo Goo Dolls concert that we planned on going to that she never even called to say she wasn't going to go. She finally sends me an email saying how hard the summer has been and the tough times she's going though. I read this email and worry even more about her just like I had for the past month. The next day I get a phone call and she tells me that she's been going on dates with someone else for the past 2 weeks and she doesn't wanna see me anymore. Of course I flip out. I head up to see her and she won't even come out of her apartment, instead my stuff was in the garage. This is the thanks I get for treating her like a princess for 8 months?? Ever since we started dating she warned me about cheating on her and basically everything she said to me she ended up doing to me. It just so happened that the day she broke up with me I got a call from an employer at the same place she works part time about an interview. I've had the interview and will know if I get the job later this week, and I have to take the job reguardless as it is a very good position. I guess what I'm asking is can you really love some one and do this to them? I know I couldn't. The problem is that I still wanna be with her very very bad even after all of this. I have not talked to her in about a month and it's been about 2 months since I've even seen her face. I've had girlfriends in the past that have lasted longer than this one but none have affected me this bad. As of a month ago she was not seeing this guy anymore but it still pains me to think of her with someone else. The fact is that I KNOW she loved me and I was convinced she had a good heart and I just wish I knew what she was thinking. She said she's changed, that was her reason for dumping me. There's a side of me that also thinks, "why would you wanna be with someone who did this to you." I dunno I guess, not that I really have a choice anyway but I guess it's just wishful thinking that she will wanna try it again espically if I get the job in her city. I know this isn't well put together but if anyone can somewhat follow what my situation is then any advice would be apprecaited. It's just tough to move on when I was convinced that I was going to marry this girl and was convinced that she truly loved me. Girls......what could she possibly be thinking? I keep thinking if I give her some space she will realize she made a mistake but my hopes grow weaker everyday. Seriously I dream about her 5-7 nights a week and that makes it tough. Some days I feel fine, some are horrible. All my friends tell me there are pleanty of others out there but the bottom line is that I want this one. I just wanted to get it off my chest and this is a great place to do it as there are so many great people here. I have been lurking ever since the breakup as it makes me feel much better reading the responses. Any advice is much appreciated.