Hi , its been about a month for me. I didnt think or obsess of him nearly as much until i heard four days ago that he left me for another girl. so hes in a relationship now! its a sickening, painful feeling to know hes with her right now, definitely having sex with her often. its so sick i cant even fathom how he could love me one minute and then be so physically and mentallly and close to another girl another and not feel like its wrong. so bc i just heard of this girl, ive been a mess the past few days. i did notice im not crying at the moment as i was a few days ago. i dont know, but yes, this is a long roller coaster ride. my relationship was five years. it isnt going to go away for awhile.
