pinkdinooo

hellooo everyoneee! its DAY 2 for me again, the longest ive been NC was 7 days so i'll try to really stick to it this time. last time he IMed me online and was asking for my news and said he was still thinking of me and all. then at the end of our conversation he said that we should go eat someday just to talk and maybe share some stories on whats been happening since our breakup. so i said sure, just call me anytime the thing is he still havent called. do you guys think hes waiting for me to call? im thinking that maybe hes waiting for me to contact him since im the one who messed up in the relationship and that maybe i should take the first step to make things work out between us..

DAY 4 so i went out last night with my friends and i had a really good time. i was really happy and was acting crazy with my girls haha when i got home in front of my door speaking with my friend at 4AM, i heard something like a voice coming from my cellphone and it was the automated message of when people dont answer their calls. so, i immediately hung up, scared i might have said something stupid or some bull * * * * . i checked my call log and of all the people i have in my contacts it had to be my ex. now i'm freaking out. if he didnt answer, does that mean he ignored me or was he just sleeping? if he doesnt ask me about it then it prolly means he didnt care... omg, im paranoying. so, did i break NC by accident? id like to say i didnt but since i feel like crap again then maybe i did... okay, i'm going to say no because it will make me feel better and keep me going haha

hey everyone! i've been reading this thread for a week now and it makes me feel so much better and i also wanted to share my stories. you guys are doing pretty good job, keep it up! my ex broke up with me in mid april and it hurts so much. before we completely go separate ways that day, he said to me "i love you but i cant be with you, not now. maybe sometime down the line, or when i'll see that youve changed. i know you're not a bad person, thats why i wont erase you from my life completely." then before he left he gave me a hug and kissed me on my forehead and said "i know you can do it". it kinda gives me hope, but i dont wanna depend on it too much. i still love him like mad and i cant stop thinking about him, but i gotta carry on. then few days later after sending little msgs to each other, he sent me a PM saying "I do believe one day our paths will cross again and that time for good". i dunno what to think. so i tried NC but broke it many times. Now, i'm really determined to go NC and make him realize that he misses me. i dont think he does cuz hes having loads of fun and stuff but we'll see. i'll make sure he knows i'm having fun too \\ wish me luck, and be strong people!