I love how open you guys are - it feels comfortable. I feel so ashamed of this childish obsession I have acquired for someone who was in my life for 2 months. Never did the I love you's or we are going to be together forever - nothing like that. We just did. One night I got an attitude (I really got scared because I knew I was leaving the next day and didn't know what that would change). He was very upset with me and that I night I had a huge event to attend which he was at - I should have gone home. He really treated me like crap and acted like a jealous little boy who was out to get me. He did.
Seriously here is the bad part. I would text him or email him something little about anything. I did get him to talk to me and we understood a lot about what was happening. It hurt because I really wanted him to stick around. I wasn't looking for marriage or love - just someone to be comfortable with in this crazy life I live. He was perfect - I thought I was too, but he just wrote me off didn't even seem to phase him that we went from basically living together for a few weeks to not speaking at all - and that's hard because we are very near each other everyday.
I hurt myself and sent him a small email just saying hey do you still have that stuff that you used for your neck - if so I can I have it? Not a worry if not. That's it. My phone rang 25 seconds later (I counted - joking). He offered to bring it over to me that night like we never missed a beat. We chatted giggled I was so nervous but is just normal. We had sex... the next day he brought food over and dropped off something of mine... we just chilled then he bolted. By see you later gone.
We would text occasionally - he isn't a big texter I am for the most part. I never thought it really bothered him. I asked because we know I am more social like that. Nope didn't bother him he said. I just got use to him texting when he wanted. Then I started feeling like he was avoiding me. He called me said he had been really busy and couldn't get back to me and just wanted me to know that. A few days later he called to come over but I fell asleep early early. I had asked to breakfast (we liked going to this cute restaurant between our houses). He always said he was busy. The night after I missed his calls he texted that he was going to meet a friend downtown but what time was I going to be up till. We texted a lot while he was out it was cute just like it always ways. I waited till 2am and was like I am out this is crazy I told him I didn't want to stand in line anymore and he was so apologetic he got stock bla bla bla... He didn't call the next day. I emailed him and just said at least girls who put them out there for booty calls get some satisfaction - I didn't get that or a call the next day.
I got a missed called the next day. Voicemail said "I am sorry I can't do this. I feel terrible about what I did." Please why the hell would I even care after that?!? I called him and we talked and giggled a little... a text message here or there - then the busy time of year came which was recent... He always shuts down around now... And... he did.
Why I am stuck on this person? He seriously has played "He's not into" clues then he acts so happy to see me or I am making myself think that. I know he really isn't "special" and just because I don't hold grudges unless you really upset me - I have all but forgotten the mean stuff. But I know it is there - and I am old enough to see the writing on the I just REFUSE to see it and it is bothering me...
Help?
