j.love
-
Posts
101 -
Joined
Content Type
Profiles
Forums
Articles
Videos
Blogs
Store
Everything posted by j.love
-
Day 5: 4:19pm I really really really miss him. Tomorrow is graduation and its killing me doing this without him. Should I send him a text saying "I miss him" cause I really really do. Parts of me says no, but my heart won't let him go.
-
I am very proud of you Igelchen, you are not playing into her crap anymore. Be strong and hold onto the fact that you are strong enough to not pick up the phone and respond. Be Strong!
-
Day 5: 11:23pm Today was Bar Crawl (an event for graduating seniors to get ridiculously drunk down town where my college is located). I was so certain that I would be so depressed and upset today without him, but I wasn't. I had fun and actually forgot sometimes that we aren't together anymore. This makes me actually believe that I will get over him, our relationship will just be something that happened to us while in college. This also makes me realize that I have choices when it comes to this situation. I can choose to be happy or choose to be upset, I wanna choose happy and being emotionally okay. So love and strength to every one, we will get through it and we WILL be okay. MUAH!!!!! *BIG HUG*
-
Day 4:7:03 pm Can't believe its been four days. I texted him yesterday about some more stuff at my place but that was it and we had our last final today and talked about the exam for a few minutes only. Tonight is a graduation party for everyone in the class. I don't know if he's going to be there but I am going to have fun with my friends. Wish me luck with keeping no contact. Also I truly believe going through a break up is like going through the stages of grief. I've been through denial, anger, and currently I am bargaining. So only depression and acceptance are left.
-
Day 3: 11:47am Feeling Terrible Its been exactly a week since we broke up and I feel so awful. I'm shaking so much I can barely type this. Today was the last of our exams, so I'm finally done with college and I can't even celebrate because all I can think about is how much I wanted to spend this moment with him. There are so many things going on this week, and I really thought we would be spending them together and the thought of facing them alone is killing me. I really want to see so bad right now. I'm so tempted to ask him to come over, cause I can't do this.
-
Igelchen have one of your friends change your facebook password this way you have no access to her info. Facebook is the devil in times like this, I hadmy friend do the same thing and I frilly know that it's one of the few things keeping me sane. So get off facebook now! Lol trust me it's for the best.
-
Igelchen have one of your friends change your facebook password this way you have no access to her info. Facebook is the devil in times like this, I hadmy friend do the same thing and I frilly know that it's one of the few things keeping me sane. So get off facebook now! Lol trust me it's for the best.
-
Day 3: 6:06pm good job Bobby! Saw him today because we have finals. It was really bad I couldn't focus for the first ten minutes because he sat a few rows in front of me. I'm just so mad it's beginning to affect other things. I was ready to fly off the handle at my roomate today when all she wanted to know was if I needed plates after she moves out this week. I felt so bad afterward. Any advice on letting go/getting through the anger.
-
that's exactly how it works lol. once you move past the pain, and get back to your life you wonder why you spent so much time agonizing over the person. i'm glad that your feeling this way, and kudos to leaving her alone! you be strong and good luck with everything
-
its only day 2....i just want to curl up somewhere
-
Day 2: 11:32pm I miss him so much, god I would do anything to get him back at this point. i'm so messed up i can't study for my finals
-
Day 2: 1:59pm So I decided it would be better for me to leave the library, since it was not healthy for me to be there to just try and see him. As I was leaving, he was walking in...ugh. I waved hello and continued walking. As soon as I passed through the doors I turned back around to see which way he was going. I know, I shouldn't have done it but I couldn't help myself. By the time I turned around he was gone. I don't know how to feel. I waited almost 3 hours hoping to get a glimpse of him and now that its happened...I feel confused.
-
Day 2: 1:04pm yesterday my friend said she saw him studying in the library. now i'm in the library maybe hoping he'll pass by or something. i'm so ANGRY at him. but i still love and miss him very much
-
I say unless she wants to talk about your friend sighh don't engage in conversation with her. if she wants to reminisce or talk about "old times" don't even bother. you are already emotional on this day remembering the passing of your friend, you don't need her extra drama to push you over the edge. go remember your friend but leave her alone. good luck and have strength my friend
-
Day 2: 1:18am I miss kissing him
-
thank you animelover and everyone else for all the support. i just deleted his texts from my phone. I went through them last night, and it didn't end well. So I figured deleting them would just be best. The hardest thing right now is when my phone rings or I get a notification, part of me wants it to be him soooo badly. On a good note my friends say that I'm dealing with the situation really well and not falling apart at the seams. Also they are proud of my NC and the fact that I have not tried to get him back. So yea!! It's all about the little victories I suppose.
-
the urge to go on FB has subsided....and I have no need to do the forgotten password thing to get back on lol. i've had many ups and downs today...right now i'm stable
-
wow, that is so similar to my story. He told me he never thought about his family before we started dating. My friends and I call total BS to that statement because how can he not. I am black and he is chinese so how do you not think of it. I know I did, but before we started dating, I knew that my family would just have to accept us, but he thought different. But Molly there is this book called Extreme Break-up recovery that I totally recommend to you. It has truly helped me with the moving on process. PM me if you want it or want to know more about it...or just talk. Be good
-
I am so with you on this one. I used to be that needy girl, but this NC will definitely help you. That's how you learn to love and respect yourself before anyone else. I just started NC yesterday, I know that we can get through this.
-
Don't know I hope I can get to a similar place as you. My story is kinda similiar, my ex had HUGE family baggage. That is why he and I broke up, they didn't approve But you seem to be moving on, and thats what I want to be able to do for my self.
-
Day 1: 12:23am I went through my phone and began reading old text messages from him. I want to delete them but I know I'm not ready yet I just miss him sooo much right now. I was at a friend's place earlier tonight. He invited me over, cause he knows what happened and wanted to help keep me company. But as I was at his place all I can think about is the time me and my ex spent together there. I had his birthday party in March at the friends house and I remembered all the time we spend there getting to know each other before we started dating. I think that is the hardest part for me. Before we started dating we shared the same group of friends. So he and I spent a lot time together before and after we started dating at these friends apartments. So there are so many memories for me there that its hard to be there sometime. Even though my friends want me to come over its really hard cause it just brings back the memories. Man I still love him so much
-
Day 1: 6:37pm Its only been an hour and the urge has only gotten stronger. I keep wanting to go to Facebook or go on AIM and just see him there even though I know I don't want to talk him and that I have nothing to say to him. I am really glad that I had my friend change my password, because that is the only thing stopping right now. I want to google him and view a cached view of his page I am just trying to work through all of this, any advice?
-
Okay so I am taking the challenge today at 5:31 pm May 8 2010. I had my friend change my FB password so I will not be tempted to go back on it. I already feel the urge to go onto FB, which shows me that my constant checking was unhealthy. I just know that I need to move forward with what has happened. Wish me luck with this!