I am 18 yrs old and going thru a hard time at the moment. Everything in my life just seems to be going down hill. But the thing that is bothering me most is that I just cannot get over my ex.
I have a problem when it comes to meeting or talking to people socially as I am fairly shy and self conscious of myself due to the verble abuse I get from my father. So because of this shyness I spend alot of time online and spend time talking to people online and then meet them that way.
Anyways my ex I actually met online. He's two years younger than me and is extemely good looking. As soon as I saw his picture I knew I wanted him. I met him in a chatroom and we exchanged addresses and started to talk regularly. As little time when on I started to fall in love with him, without even meeting him!!
Evenually we met and I was looking really forward to meeting my dream guy.
When we met we really did hit it off he was everything I could of hoped for. He was very smart, going to be a success, the most beautiful guy I have ever seen in my entire life and he said he felt the same way about me.
To cut a long story short he asked me out and we decided we'd become an item. I was the happiest guy alive, finally I thought my years of bad luck r starting to turn out right.
But two short days later bad luck was on my side again. My very new boyfriend said he could never see me again in a text message on my mobile phone. I called him right away and he was crying. After a long time of begging him not to do this to me he told me why he couldn't see me ne more. The distance was too far for him to cope with and that, that day he'd been raped.
He blamed me for being raped and of course I was very upset, all i wanted to do was support him and he turned my support and help down and that was the most hurtful thing he could do.
Ne ways after about 2 months of this happening I'm still not over him. I feel like no one is good enough to replace him. I feel there is no one better on this earth I'd rather have than him.
Its just so strange how you can love someone and you have only met them once in your life.
I just cannot get him out of my head and we haven't even been in contact from that day.
What can I do?
