hey!
i have a really cold heart since my dad was killed i hated every one,i used to date girls just to hurt them,i am from Colombia south America and since i got hier i had never had a problem with girls,i wanted a girl and i will get it,i had never got any one to say no to me,and i dated the most beautifull girls on my school, i liked a girl a lot once, but i was mad at the world because of my dads dead so i dump her on christmas,
it was mean and i regret it,i feel bad for that,but that is on the past,i had always like a girl since i got to America and i was afraid to ask her out because she is really sweet and i didn't wan't to hurt her,i decide to gave me a chance with her last year,i promise my self that i was gonna change i left my friend's because they where bad company,and like my father used to say"tell me who your friends are and i will tell you who you are"any way's i haven't feel this way in my hole life i feel like my chest is gonna explode every time i kiss her, we have been together for 3 month's yesterday,and i feel my heart warming again, i can't believe that i could ever love a girl like this, i cant believe i could love anyone with this intensitie,wen we are in private i feel like im in haven i feel peace,butterfly's in my stomach i feel that my life is perfect really perfect.i am INLOVED really inloved, we love each other so much.
but i am a really jelous person and i come from a violent country so wen i feel attack,i attack,kim is like no the kind of popular girl she is really cute i mean i have good standars, and wen people try to harras her in any way i get mad and hit them i can't control my self i don't wan't anithing or any one to hurt her i LOVE HER.more than anithing on this world i mean she is my world and my universe she is the one i wan't to spend my life with GOD I LOVE HER!i love her and respect her so much that some times we are in the perfect place and the perfect moment to make love, i can't im afraid that she is gonna be afraid of looking at my eyes again i know that it has to happen some time, because wen 2 person love each other so much it happen's, but im afraid, i don't know if iwan't to take the risk i love her a lot she is my life and i don't wan't my heart to be cold again i like the feeling i love it, we have talk about it before she told me that is impossible to stop loving me and that she never will,but she never done it before so i don't wan't to hurt her i mean wen she get's a head ache i feel sad imagine in her first time? tell me what to do? please i need help.
