Well here goes. I need to do this.
This was the first Christmas and new year I didn't spend with my now-ex after 2 years after splitting at the beginning of April 2016. Since then, he'd emailed me several times saying lovely things and I replied, always hoping that every bit of contact would bring us back together. He also said things (on email) that wound me up and every time I resolved never to message him again because it was clear that the reasons behind us splitting up would never change.
That would last for a few weeks, then I'd miss him and feel the need to make contact (always by email).
Anyway, the last time I heard from him was just before Christmas telling me to have a nice time (as if!), and with all the festivities and parties, I've started missing him again so decided to make contact with him. I got a nice reply, again with a big X at the bottom, but it didn't say what I ultimately wanted him to say..that he wanted me back.
I need to stop this constant going round in emotional circles. It hurts and I need to move on with others that ARE showing interest in me.
So, as I said, here goes!...