ACarrington

2 weeks of no contact! I feel like I will probably never hear from her again, despite what she said...

Im on Day 5, almost Day 6! In the past several weeks this is the longest we haven't talked... I miss her and would love to see her, but Im staying strong and trying to move on.

Its now time to officially start... Day 2. My moods are so fluctuating I feel like I'm bipolar... Sometimes I will feel so sad I just want to lay in bed with this horrible anxious feeling inside my chest that won't go away, then I will feel free of these anxious feelings and just be calm... Today this happened in 2 to 3 cycles... Im taking summer classes away from home and I told my mom I want to come home, she told me "You can't come home every time something goes wrong! You have to suck it up. You'll be fine." So if my softy of a mom can look at it that way, I better damn well try to do as she said!

Im on Day 3... This is hard! For a while I was going 5-7 days at a time, and at one point 9 days without contact, but since we have been getting together recently I have been contacting more... Unfortunately I think I am planning to go over to her house on Monday, but after that I am done. NC for a month! Maybe I should just start counting on Tuesday then? haha