carebear697

not posted for a while... i went 6weeks no contact then i met someone else. I know now that it wasnt ment to be. I have recently seen my ex again- when he came round to drop off the last of my things (I thought he'd done this already). I think now he knows ive moved on and he wants me back (due mainly to the late night drunken calls- to think i used to do this) but i reckon we can both be strong and kno when to end it. Everyone here I know you have the power within yourself to move on no matter how hard it may feel now. Believe me, ive been in that dark hole wanting a cuddle from him to tell me it;ll all b ok but hey theres more to life and i dnt need that cuddle from him anymore. Not because Ive met someone far superior than he could have ever been but because I kno myself now and I kno I dnt need to rely on anyone else to make myself happy. I will see my ex tomorrow at a gig. I bought tickets for us both to attend before we broke up (now 6months ago). I reckon it'll be awkward at first but I will be strong in letting him kno that it was his choice to end it, my heart was broken and I have managed to heal myself. I adore my new man, he treats me so much better and I have a giggle. I sometimes feel that it may all turn sour at any moment but thats the risk we take in love. Peace all xx

So starting from Day 1 again... even tho he is talking to me right now on instant msngr i am ignoring it, i cant block him coz we are friends with the same people and all he has to do is ask them if im online. This is sooo silly I feel like a wee kid again being childish. I did tell him yday that I needed my space and I didnt want to speak to him until he has decided what he wants. he said he understands but still asks me about my day and what im up to. Maybe he wants to make up but I also think he just wants me to hold his hand through this break up and when I said that to him on msngr he told me he just wants to talk to me?? I had to speak to him yday i felt the need to... I feel real bad for doing so cause it made me feel sad when he said he still doesnt know what he wants? I am confused and going to keep no contact until he comes to his senses this is unfair on me...

I dont think you should have contacted her again gottabelieve?! However I do know what wine makes you do Its not wrong that you want her to know why you want NC but it is wrong that she didnt bother to contact you to explain in detail, when she said she would?

Hard one doiiieeezie!! I think if you were last to contact him and you explained how you are feeling then it is up to him to contact you again. Even if you did say you wanted some space. But what do I know? Ive only had one serious relationship and it ended last week by him and hes still trying to contact me. I havent told him i wanted no contact though, im just ignoring him as I think its best...

I dont know how to feel I have been having crazy dreams since we broke up and they seem to be getting worse. I am waking up thinking he is beside me and that he is cuddling me its kinda sad when i realize its just covers thats there. He has not tried to contact me today but I know he is missing me cause he told my sister on msn yesterday. All my efforts to ignore his texts asking me what im doing is useless if he is going to ask my sister and successfully find out!!! Hopefully no more dreams tonight and I will spend some quality time today watchin movies on tv and eating too much chocolate

I dnt think this actually works. I think I am hurting him more when I am ignoring him and I really want to reply. Although I have managed to stop myself so far. My sister is telling me to txt him how i feel but he knows already. I left him a letter at his house. I hate the whole lets be friends thing. Maybe hes just being friendly.... I will go to bed now this has been the hardest day of my life!

we have only broke up a week ago with him saying he doesnt know what he wants??????????? Someone said if you continue to talk then id be holding his hand through his heartache and mines would get worse but i want to work it out......................

So hes just text me asking me what I am doing, even tho i seen him today and told him what i was doing...... I dont know how strong i can be! I may bend to his will....

DAY 1: I will accept the challenge for myself. Every time we talk I end up feeling worse about the situation, especially since he broke it off. Suppose to be mutual but I was kidding myself! I know its only been a week and I only collected my things today. Infact can this count as day1 if i seen him just 2 hours ago when I was getting my stuff? Whatever- I cant talk to anyone here as they all have their own opinion of him, of us and they always make me feel sad too... even if they are trying to cheer me up with their "but you were too good together" or their "its been 7 year you will get back together". I really wish for that but I dnt kno anymore after today he seems to have changed and Im scared he'll get over me too fast. Anyway hes now on block and I can see he is online but I will not be speaking to him tonight so can I please have this as day 1?