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day 36: I don't know why it gets worse, this is crazy. I havee tried everything but my mind just drifts back to her and before i know it im in an almost dream state thinking about her. I was hoping something would have happened by now but no dice. She did txt me on the 30 mark saying she missed me but I was too stupid or too hurt still to txt back and hping she would again that way I know she did really missed me. I just hate and am ashamed of what I have gone through emotionaly the last month and scared I will let her or someone else hurt me again. It's just crazy. Broken hearts are no joke it took me 35 years to have mine broken and I'm sorry I ever told anyone or thought to myself about someone else to "get over it".
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Yeah I have done the same reflection, I'd love to have her back at her best not some of the other behaviors though. I feel sooooo stupid to be in my mid 30's and feeling this way.
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Day 17 for me and i'm more depressed than anything. I'm cryish all day long (i feel like i am so weak). I too don't trust anyone. But im not irritable, I have no fight in me what so ever.
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Hang in there. I'm sitting in stake n shake as I type like a loser by my self cause if stay home I won't eat. Nashville is dead on monday nite lol
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Day 16: Did ok yesteday only freaked out once. Today has been terrible. I almost broke down and called a few times. Only slept two hours though last night. I gotta get myself together. Hard to believe I feel like I never meant that much to her.
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I always pick the wrong one. I have never gave up on or walked out on a relationship. I'm loyal and will to work on problems, there are very few problems i cant get through. Short of being some sort of terrible criminal I open to the problems. So I know she will never find anyone more loyal. All the other stuff who knows. also i think i said this before........ i hate my phone now cause when its not her i am disappointed. thats so silly. its funny how you jump when the phone rings because ur conditioned to associating a ring tone with a person. she used to txt me 100+ times a day right up til the end.
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I feel about the same way as maybe cause we are from the same state. Tennessee here also. I'm still hurting pretty good though. Here I am at home on a Saturday night dying inside cause I don't feellike going out. I wen tout last night and just ended up drinking and i havent drank in years. I don't wanna go back to drinking. It's DAY 14 of NC and I dont know if it's worse or better.
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7 days, no chance of me making contact, not after the way it all went down. just still sucks. Misty eyed, full sotmach feeling all that but i know its over andhapefully that will sink in soon. Anyone have yahoo or wanna chat via IM?