After my ex contacted me on saturday I broke my NC the next day, it was weird he wanted me to go with him to six flags. I knew in my heart it wasnt a good idea so I said no, so far I had been coping well with the break up. But later on during the week I started reading more into it. The last time we broke up, three weeks later he wanted me to go with him to disneyland and then we got back together. I think I thought the same thing might have happened. I ended up going it was fine until he did something that kind of made me wonder if he was just using me, after that I was upset the rest of the day. And when he was taking me up back we talked about why he wanted to be my friend still. It's exactly what everyone here keeps mentioning; it was easier for him to move on being my friend I guess. And since that night I've hit an all time low. I've gone out but it hasnt helped. Todays Day 4 went to work, the tears just started flowing, didn't even go to class. I just can't stop thinking about him and how I want to be with him.
