Hey there,
I miss you, more than you can imagine. But I care about you too much to stand in the way of your happiness. I guess that's the martyr in me. It kills me not to have you in my life, my friend.
I kept too many things to myself in our last convo. I thought I was prepared for it. But in the end, I was too numb to say anything, but nod to whatever you said. I was scared I'd start crying if I said too much. I didn't want you to see me weak. You know, I could barely walk when I left you that day.
I would've put up more of a fight for our relationship instead of giving up so easily if I knew you wanted me to. But I'll never know. I won't break NC b/c I don't want to find out officially if you've cancelled that account-the one that was only for me. You initially pursued me, and I won't beg for you to stay.
I'll never forget you and will always treasure my time with you. I hope you do the same. If only circumstances were different and you were more honest with me. I wonder how things would've been...