siennalou

Didn't post yesterday - Day 2 - still NC. I kind of feel like a fake tho because he is out of town. I did drive by his fiance's house (she lives in my neighborhood, our mailboxes are near her house) and swore thru the window at her house. I need to stop doing that. How do you stop the anger? How do you channel it elsewhere? I need to channel it into doing things for me. : (

Day 2 - NC I deleted all the bookmarks on the ex. That was good. I wanted to call my ex's fiance's ex (who is a friend) but I didn't. (That was good) I know he & his new love are on a 2 week vacation. Good for them! Of course I really don't believe that. I hope it rains every day, I hope he's abusive of her and I hope they have a really really bad time. Sorry can't help it, she WAS a friend. Some day I'll reach the point where I just don't care. That is what I'm looking forward to. Indifference to the creeps.

I would like to take the SuperDave NC challenge. I divorced my evil ex husband 8 months ago and I'm coming up on the one year anniversary of his moving out. I'm glad he's gone, he was a jerk, a liar and a cheater. I don't talk to him or email him. Strangely though, I google him all the time (!!!). We were married for 20 years so I do still have feelings for him underneath all the hurt and grief and anger. Today I also considered calling him to talk to him about our teenage son. That would be a BAD idea. My ex is abusive and our last communication was an evil email from him in June. Thanks SuperDave! This is day 1 for me.