I am still not sure why she left. She has said that she doesn't love me anymore, which really hurt at first, but I have always wondered if you can really stop loving someone just like that. She also said that she didn't think we was as close as we used to be, but how is breaking up going to help that? I was told she was cheating on me, but she adamantly denies it and I believe her. She already has someone else though, and that's part of why I am having trouble letting go. I still love her and I don't want her to get hurt. I really thought that we would get married. It was the girl I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. I've tried talking her into going back out with me, but she just says not yet, maybe some time in the future. I've tried telling her I love her, but I just get silence. I've tried telilng her how I feel but that just makes her feel bad. I can't stop thinking about her, I've tried that too. I'm only getting about four or five hours of sleep a night. I only eat one meal a day at the most. I can't convince her that I love her and she should go back out with me. She always said she would never leave me and she loves me, and I always told her likewise. I just can't stop calling, writing, thinking, caring, and loving her. Do I keep trying to get her back, try to just be friends, or try to do something else to forget about her? Oh, and I can't go out with anyone else either. I've cheated on people before (which I'm not proud of) and it didn't really bother me. But now, even after we've broke up, I can't even look at another girl without getting that guilty feeling inside and my self conscience beating on my skull telling me to stop. I'd appreciate it if someone knows what to do. I'm out of ideas.
