I was with this guy for one and a half year. He was the guy i really loved alot all my life. He's the only one who really loves me and cares for me. He showed me what happiness and family was.
He is actually older than me by 11 yrs, but even so we have never had any disagreements nor age gap problems. We got along very well and were even planning on getting married next year. I rally love him alot and he has really become a part of my life as in whatever i do i will think of him.
The only thing is that he can't stand people who lie to him. And recently i lied to him and he told me to go home. (i was actually staying with him for the one and a half year) And before that when i was with him, i was with his working partner. We did 'that thing' together but not long after i realised that his partner was those kind who only wants that kind of thing. so i broke up with with and got together with my present boyfriend.
This matter somehow got to my boyfriends mother and she was very angry as she knows the guy and she felt ashamed. She scolded my boyfriend for choosing me as a girlfriend. She even told him that she does not want this kind of daughter in law. So even if he brought me home, it would be no use, she said. So yesterday, my boyfriend called me to say that it would be better if we break up for a while. He said that next time we might still have a chance to get back together.
He said that if i find someone else better than him, go ahead. If not by then if i'm still single, he would give me a chance to get back together again. I told him that i would wait for him to give me that chance, because i really can't let go of him i really love him too much. He's really become a part of my life. Nobody else can replace him. I also asked him yesterday whether he still loved me alot and he said yes, it;s just that his mother and stuff like that. He really wanted to get back with me but recedntly with all this problems and his business not doing well, he just wants to be alone for the time-being, with not so much troubles.
I'm really very sad, all this happened too soon and i really do not want to break up with him.If you really love someone, you should learn to let him go and understand. I love him and thats why i agreed to the break up and he too promised me that he would give me that chance, which would be half a year or one year later. That would be the time where hopefully his mother would have cooled down.
Can you imagine that i have been crying for non stop three days. I am even crying right now as i write this letter. I really don;t want to forget him. I love him too much. He's the very first guy who treats me real well and gives me the sense of security. I really miss him alot and i really want to hug him in my arms now. Now that i am staying at my fathers house, i really am at a loss, i feel so lonely and feel that i just might go crazy anytime. I have no one to talk to at home and it's at that time where i really miss him. Miss the times where we cuddle each other to sllep, where i do househole chores for him, see him wake up and hug me.....
