matthew

Why would I want to beat her up. That would make things more ***ed up. I forgot to mention i had a fight with her ex. She did not seem to appriatiate me fighting outside her flat especially seeing as she already has a kid. I thought I was protecting her but women are on a different planet. He had written notes threating murder suicide and knocks on the door so I just went at him. This was when I went round to patch things up. I guess I screwed up. The point I was making was that shit happens and people do things they regret but it is upseting when a life is ended over things like that. I guess she didnt want to be with me no more cuz she thought I was violent person. I hate her for seemly blaming me for her decision to abort. I think I must have some female hormones or sumthing cuz I know exactly jow many weeks old the baby would be. it would have been born on my birthday in october almost to the day. i think i must be really ***ed up to think like that. I know this is just how it is but it doesnt make it any easier

hey there I have had simular experience. I have to say it is the worst. I am not coping very well with what happened to me so I don t know how to help much. (mayb sum1 can give me sum advice). The story goes. Up auntil last year i was a fun and happy guy who has had relationships but never met any1 special. In fact I didnt think too much of relationships and was allways trying to run away cuz I didnt think she was sum1 I wanted too be with 4 long. Last summer I met a girl who I had worked with 4 a year. We were only friends but on new years eve we got 2gether. I never thougt I would meet sum1 that I was became very in love with. She was the 1. We were inseperable and I know she was infatuated with me also. She was stunningly beautiful and could get any guy she wanted but also we really connected and related well together. I thought these people were only in the movies yaknow? When she became pregnant everything changed. At first she wouldnt even let me touch her and we did not sleep 2gether 4 a week. Then she started asking me about names for the kid and puting my hand on her stomach. I was very confused. What added to this was that she became pregnant the week she hooked up with me and left her ex. He was still texing her and knocking on the door at night wanting answers. I did not know if I was the father but she told me she had a "feeling" I was. I did not know wether to go along with her opinion and I did not enjoy her being upset with me 4 getting her pregnant when it may well not have been me. She then started getting doubtful about us and we argued daily. evntually I cracked and insulted her by saying That it was hard sleeping with sum1 who maybe pregnant with sum1 elses child. She threw me out and then rang me back to say she needed space. She slept with sum1 else and I found out. goodbye. At first I hated her and she told me she was having an abortion cuz we wernt together anymore. I still hated her but soon the guilt kicked in and now feel that by not handling the situation very well I lost her and the baby. This is not sumthing I have been able to deal with. She does not talk to me and appears to hate me. I wish I had of handled things differently. She was one of those people u dont meet everyday. I have never had any1 hate me as much as she does.