DarkOrchid

Well the funny thing is...I really cant stand him. Ever since we moved in together I have noticed how insensitive and inconsiderate he is. Hes pretty much an * * * * * * * altogether. But he does make me laugh. Hes such a funny guy. I know, dumbest exscuse ever to stay with someone whose a jerk. And I was sexual abused breifly when I was rather young, I just can't remember the details to well. I really doubt thats it though, it doesnt affect me in normal life. And to whoever said asexual, thats what I was thinking to. I just didn't really think it was possible for people to be asexual. Comforting thought. Thanks to all who responded

I have been struggling with the basis behing my gulilt for a very long time. I don't know where it stems from. But I always have an overwhelming sense of gulilt whenever he tries to pleasure me. I feel guilty that hes pleasuring ME when I should be the one pleasuring him.

Yes, I have had many orgasms via masturbation. I would rather masturbate anyday then have to deal with all the combative emotions I go through when I force myself to have sex.

Ive been with my boyfriend for 4 years now. I started to date him when I was 16 and he has been my first everything. Im really starting to feel guilty about our relationship. For the past two years we have rarely had sex mainly becuase I just cant stand it. I hate the anxiety I feel when hes on me, or even when Im on him. When we do have sex the only thing Im thinking is please hurry up. Its not enjoyable and I am never aroused. I have so much guilt, I think hes going to break up with me soon If I don't fix whatever is wrong with me. Is it normal for a 20 year old to have such a low labido? Or is there something wrong with me?