Thanks for replying so promptly, I guess I know in my heart that I shouldnt compromise myself, but I also dont want to compromise him. I want us BOTH to want the same thing, simultaneously I guess. He is a wonderful, genuine person, he has done a lot of soul searching recently through self improvement books, CDs and seminars and I think he is questioning a lot of things in his life at the moment. I know that I dont fit his picture of an ideal women, he likes brunette, celtic looking women who are tall and slim, and I am short, cuddly (Not fat, but rounded at the edges), homely and blonde!!! Part of me wants to just let him go, then I guess I would know then whether he really loves me, as they say " If you love someone let them go, if they dont come back they were never yours to begin with, and if they do, theyll be yours forever".
I just hate all the indecision at the moment, but then if I gave him an ultimatum he has already said that he will leave. I am 32, and my biological clock is ticking...god, I HATE getting older. I feel that I cant afford to waste my time in a go nowhere relationship. But without sounding like a cliche, I really love him and give him 100% support, and I can see his potential as a great husband and father. Sometimes love SUCKS !!!!](*,)
