Ive nown my now girlfriend for about eight years and wrote a song about her two years ago, we are now seeing each other and things where great with the exeption of me rasing my voice a time or two until this morning ..
I woke up and she was right out of bead ready to go out the door and I said arent you going to have coffee first??
and she said., I dont tell you when to go out or what to do , and we started to argue and I lost my cool, pulled her hair and hit her on the side of the head and
"I regreat it terribly, she said I broke her trust and yah, I agree,, I told her that I never wanted to act like that again and needed help to deal with how to controll myself when I get angry
she came back to let me make breakfast, and said "I should go to church and not counseling. I spoke to a counselour about it and he told me all I can do is tell her I'll respect her suggestion and be there for her and whatever dicision she makes I'll accept it. I had the chance to give her just that in a letter and she said that was nice but I think I may have damaged our relationship
and I pray for both her and my well being and to seek propper comunication tools and ways to deal with how I act when I get angry
all I can hope for is a second chance if I even get one
keeping the faith
-jay