SadHappyGirl

Any suggestions?

I think a major problem is that I have no friends, and the few friends I do have I dont care to hang around b/c they are too juvenile/down right obnoxious. That sounds quite negative but I dont mean to be. I could go on and on about the stories but I wont. I just dont care to hang around ppl I find obnoxious so Im back to zero.

I'd really love to be in a realtionship its just hard for me to find someone I'd like be with. I have an issue w/ pushing people away. I dont know why. Ive tried hobbies, and making myself super busy so I wont have to think about having realtionships. Unfortunately I became so I busy I just got burnt out & it really didnt help the problem. I should look for "friendships" but its hard b/c I know that Im looking for more. I wonder how other people get through this. I know that spending all your time obsessing about having relationships wont help. So how can I stop myself from doing this?