I think I may need some help.... I have had some bad thoughts going through my mind lately and I think I need some help before something bad happens to me. I have been going through so much stress that I really can't handle it anymore. I just recently lost my job because I can't find ways of dealing with this stress that I have. I have no friends at all to turn to. I know that my wife is going to leave me soon because I can't change the way that I am. I had a son that passed away in september of 1995 and I still haven't been able to get past that. I have 2 kids now that I am trying to get involved with but I don't want to get too close to them because I don't want them to be like me when they grow up. I feel like I shouldn't be here but I don't have no where to go. Everytime someone gets close to me I make sure to destroy any kind of friendship I have with that person. I am in need of some help but it is hard for me to talk to people any more. Sometimes I wish that my wife would leave me so I can just be alone and not have anyone to be around me if I decide to do something to myself. I had a job interview today and I totally blew it because I don't have the self-confidence in myself anymore. I feel like I am a 26 year old failure because I don't have the strength any more to do anything for anyone because I am sick of being hurt.
