Okay as far as it goes, i know that my personality TOTALLY SUCKS. I went through alot of my life as someone who was really shy and it's something that i feel has left me with quite a DRY character.
For example this is how i view myself in the point of others:
"I would hate to be locked up in a room with her because she's soo BORING ?!!"
My first concern is how on earth do you incorperate clever humour into conversations. To me, the people i admire the most are the funny ones, i instantly adore them because of their personality, and envy anyone who has the ability to naturally come out with amusing things !
It makes me feel soo worthless and lame, that all i can do is stand there and laugh and keep my mouth shut because anything i could have to say would suck and not be anything in comparisson to what others say. I really hate it. & being surrounded by just these comical and hillarious people, if i could wish anything, it would be to have that confidence to be in the same lime light.
I guess im not confident, sometimes i feel as if anything that comes out of my mouth is just useless and dumb and that my vocabulary is awful, and i should go read the dictionary or something. I find it really difficult because sometimes i feel as if humour tumbles around patronising intelligance, and people just aren't interested in anyone who's dumb and doesnt have anythng good to say or knows accuratly well what their talking about.
This has resulted more in me whining and complaining than asking for advice, but i couldnt name a good quality about myself on any one of my fingers.
My opinions are short and something you couln't discuss further into, i'm just lame with a capital L. How can i assure myself of confidence in what i talk about generally?!