im just really feelin very low and lost right now and think i need some advice or thoughts from people who may hav been through the same thing as me.
Basically me and bf of 3 years split up, mutually about 3 months ago (we were each others first loves). we hang about in the same circle of friends and wen we split we continued to be best friends and it was nice in a way still seeing and knowing i hadnt lost him as a best friend. When i found out had kissed another girl i was devastated and now they are bf and gf.
When i found out i completley went into shock and stayed in bed for 3 days just cryin and lookin through all of our memories. Lat night my friends finally managed to drag me to the pub and he was there with her. It makes me want to be physically sick when i see them and i guess and im gutted at how he can watch me go through this. i mean hes told me hes worried about me but thts hard to believe when i feel like this because of him.
We were best friends and i was closer to him than anyone ever in my life and we went through so much together. I just feel completley lost and dont really know how to act around him, I just dont think im at the stage to be happy for him yet and i see him everyday.
i do still love him so much but know that it wasnt working so why do i feel like this? he doesnt. im not only gutted about the relationship with my first love ending but also because ive lost my best friend. any advice or thoughts would really help, thanks
