luisangel1
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well its been many months since I posted on my breakup , and if you read the beginning of the original posting of my experiense then the update will maby create some interesting thoughts on my breakup.Well guys and gals over the summer my ex kept intouch even on vacation she made it a point to keep in touch and always showed affection, now mind you after many months of accepting the fact that she had broke up with me and went back to her ex-boyfriend( must read original postings) any way she was very un happy durring the last months , I told her that she diddnt have to live like that and she had choices, and durring that period she kept bringing up that she never was able to get me out of her mind or heart in August she broke up with her boyfriend and we became a little closer and actually were getting along very well,unfortunately her ex didnt take the break up as well as I did and has caused some trouble for her, In the mean time I am helping her with her legal afaires trying to keep her from lossing her home , and helped her with grocerys and fixing her car, but I started noticing she was very unconfortable with what was going on in her life which is understandble but until that moment she was actually giving me the impresion that she enjoyed my company and was showing a lot of affection , well last week she calls me up and tells me that she asked a lady at work what was I talking about and that the lady told her that I mentioned that we had a good weakend and was was concerned that she was acting so distant, well she gos on about how I shoudnt talk about her personnel life with any one and that I was preasuring her to have a relationship and that she could not start a relationship while all thees things are going on in her life, I was surprised because as I told her I dont call you you call me , I dont force you to go to lunch or to go to my office looking for me you do this on your own, and have not heard from her since, did see her at work several times at the end of the day, and I always wish her a good evening , but dont call or contact on my off time, well its almost the end of the year and didnt expect to end up dealing with this . thoughts???? anyone....
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Well, its been a while but yesterday after almost a month of successful healing my ex girlfriend and if any one is interested they have to read this hole post to figure out what this is all about , but anyway she says she needs to talk to me about some problems she is having so , I say ok lets talk, she gos on about how she is having problems with the guy she stated seing after she dumped me and again you must read post from beginning to fugure this out , and I said whats the problem well it seems that her boyfriends friend is practically keeping tabs on everything she does and reporting it to him , so I said well why dont your boyfriend say something to him , and she say well I dont think he is man enough any way , I said you knew how he was before when you split up with him and your going to have to deal with him and your problem , I dont know what to tell you , and she says well I know what to do with him , and she gos on about how she loved the times we had together and would never regreted it,and I am just staring at her like what the heck is this about, any way I said look your going to have to except this man with his problems and deal with it, as far as me I will eventually find some one that I will be happy with and I have been moving on, and she says you dont have to look for no one else your women is right here in front of you, and I just looked at her like what is this all about, any way any insite on this will be greatlty appreciated.
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yes I do, and thank you for your comments and help sometimes we have to have the ability to have patience, and the determining factor is able to except time as the future if you know what I mean, its a hard decision for her and believe me I know more than ever how important it is.
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I think and believe me I have had time to think, that she has had a lot of failures with relationships , she dosnt want to commit and I place her on a pedestal and just let her fall, I think in her own way she just wants to make sure that that isnt going to happen again, on the other hand ,I want her to be sure also because she wont be happy in the long run either way I wish her the best she deserves it.
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Well it has been over a month of this painfull ordeal, and let me say that the pain is not as bad , I am actually doing quite well. Yeaterday I was working on a project in a building and she walks in and just stares at me, that was two times allready she has made it a point to be where I was, any way I asked her how she was doing and she just stared at me , I said to her I remember that look whats wrong, and she didnt say any thing, I could tell that she has somthing on her mind, but I didnt push it nore showed to much interest and continuid to do my job, well the end of the day came and she came to me and asked me your leaving aready and I said yes its time to go , but you have a greatweakend, well I am not getting my hopes up but I think the time is coming when were going to be faced with the disicion weather or not to pick things up where we left off or at least I am,,,,,, one day at a time, tomorrow is never promised......
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Well she calls my cell the otherday as I was leaving work , and says i want you to know that you were not entertainment to me, I was sort of confused so I said well thats good and I am aware of how things were between us and you know that I would never hurt you, I have put closure to this and have acepted that things sometimes are out of our control, any way she says well I have somthing I want to tell you , so I said ok I can call you later and we can finnish this conversation if you like, she says no I will call you, well I told her that thursday is my long run day so a 13 mile run , I will be home after 7:00 pm she said thats fine I know , any way I didnt expect her to call , and she didnt because I know theres some things unresolved in her head, so the next day I didnt press the isuie and said good morning and had a good day at work, I ran into her best friend and we started talking about some things in her life, and she stops and says you know I am not going to take sides in what your going thrue ,with my friend but I am going to say this, she has on many ocasions mentioned how she has never known anyone that has loved her as you do, and she thinks that her feer is that you will hurt her and after she gets her hopes up about a possible future, any way I said I would never do that I am a very commited human being , when it deals with my partner I stayed commited with my ex for years even though she decided to live away for years, but I left it at that, and will continue to do my marathons and take care of my son for I thank the lord the judge let me keep him, and everyday I am doing better.
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well today she finds me and says she has to talk to me about something , so I say ok well chat later , well I get with her and she goes on about how my friend told some one she knows, that he didnt understand why she wasnt with me ,any way she got all upset about this and that I needed to to tell my friend about how he shouldnt be in our business any way the conversation went to about how difulcult the friendship thing was for me because of my feelings for her at the moment, any way I asked her how did she do it, because it was very difulcult for me, any way , I told her that I will not interfere in her relationship with her ex, because I wanted her to be happy, well she walks up to me and presses her body against mine and says what if Im not happy,, I just stared at her and wondered what the heck is this about, any way thats the latest and Im doing better every day,,,,
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well ,, took several days to think those questions over, and I would like to continue the relationship with her, as far as my ex, we were apart for so long it didnt really bother me about the divorce as a matter of fact we actally communicate more about each others lives, go figure, but let me say that as much as I wish me and my girlfriend got back together, the longer we have stay apart, the more I realize she is the one who really lost here ,not me, I think I will have to say that am I starting to feel sorry for her, because its hard to find some one that respects you and wont take advantage of you, and a women with 3 kids must have a very carefull atitude about how to go about life, well just my 2 cents any way, thats the latest, and I am doing better each day.
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well things just get a little confusing, todayI ran into her at work and while I was getting some info from a coworker about a project I looked up while talking and she just like sticks her tungue out at me and I just stare at her like whats going on and she just smiles, well I finnished getting my briefing and she sort of bumps into me casually, any way as I was leaving , i looked into her eyes and she had a look that was sort of a thinking and miss you look , any way I didnt give it any thoughts dont want to get my hopes up and she was just tryng to be playfull, heck what do I know , any body that reads this can figure that at this point I have no Idea where this is going if any thing change.
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yep , either way I believe that she could have kept it to her self, about the making the decision about me and her ex, but for some reoson it just doesnt make sense to me , oh well I wish her the best of luck, theres is nothing more I can help her with , I am just going to contemplate the fact that if she has problems trying to figure out what to do then its best to stay away and let her make her own desicions, I think I had more to ofer than he did , but who am I to figure out the wanders of the human mind,,,,ha ha
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well me too, but one of her reasons for telling me as she puts it is that she didnt want anyone telling me that she was seen with her ex, and I be hurt,,well I replied well then whats the confusion it seems to me that you have already made your decision, and she says thats the problem I havent and dont know what to do,,, any way I informed her that I was not going into some competition with some guy that supposivly was so bad she had to kick him out of the house and if she wanted to talk she knew how to get a hold of me of otherwise , I think she just plain confused about what she wants heck I dont know, I asked her how long had this been going on or did she really run into him and she said I didnt go looking for him, but had a talk with him and found out she had feelings for him also. well my friend is this something or what???? any way thats exacltly what I did leave her with her dicision and drive on.
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Well what a crazy day, she desides that she has to talk to me , and that this has been on her mind , to the point that it has her going crazy, so i say ok lets talk, wel she say that she doesnt want to hurt me but she has to tell me something , so by now , I am like well then tell me and get it out of way,, so she tells me that she ran into the guy she lived with before and had kicked out and now is confused because she doesnt know what to do, so iam like in between not laughing and what the heck is this about , any way I say to her whats the confusion about , it should be plain and simple , because I am not here to compete with any one if you want to continue our relationship as we left it you know how I was, well she now says well it isnt that easy beause I had buetifull moments with both of you, well I said well your going to have to figure this out but I think you have made your desision, and she says no I havent thats the problem,, any way I just told her that if she wants to talk about it she knows how to get ahold of me and left it at that,,,, anybody have any insite on this
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well , tomorrow is another day so I will continue to live life the best I can , I will see where this takes me,, in the mean time i will just remain relaxed and see how things playout , and concentrate on me as best I can.
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the day she recommended that we have buetifulfrienship ,I was having some positive communication with her but her friend asked her to come inside for a minute and then she came back out crying and said that she didnt want to continue the conversation so I am really confused its like she wants to be friends but , can talk with you only when I feel like it heck I dont know , its confusing me
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I think it would be hard fro me because up to the day before breakup she had shown me she loved me so, and I still do, but yesterday we both had to work on saturday and I basically had no contact with her, towards the end of the day I had to discuss some matters of work and then went to office and caught her starring at me and smiling, well any way I knew she had to work today sunday, so I wished her a good work day and she replied and you do same, It kinda took the tention off I guese, but I cant seem to get rid of the connection though I woke up,a lot calmer today, and more relaxed