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All this advice is good. I think one person got confused though. He did get a divorce when we were together. He is NOT married anymore. Just wanting to get back with his ex...

I really wouldn't contact her. I just want to so bad. I am so angry and bitter and I don't enjoy feeling this way. It is becoming all consuming.

Ok, this is going to be a bit long but I am at my wits end. I just don't know what else to do. Part of it is my fault...I got inovled with a married man, although he did profess that he was very unhappy and had been contemplating divorce. And he also suffers from depression, which might explain his confusion. Anyway, we got together in July of last year. We moved in together in September, he filed for divorce and it became final in October. Well, come Christmastime, he wants to get back with his ex...they've been together since she was 15 and he was 18...total of 10 years. So he moves in with his parents. Come January, he is wanting to get back together with me. Then in March we break up for good. One other thing, I lied to him about being married before. Ever since March we have been on again, off again. And keep in mind, we work together. Well, in the interim, his ex moves to Atlanta and they still talk. Finally, in the last month, he really professes that he has always loved her and our relationship was just based on passion, not love. Even though he said it was the greatest passion he has ever had. Well, I can't seem to reconcile this. I have his password to his email and I check it and he writes emails to his ex stating how sorry he is and he wants her back. But then, he comes over to be with me. Well, last night, he writes her this email saying that he has thought about her every day for the last year. he wants her back, misses her, etc. She doesn't know that over this time, we have been on again, off again. He has made it very clear though, that he doesnt want to get back together. WHY CAN'T I LET GO??? I have lowered myself to checking his email to see if they email each other. After reading this last email, I want to email her and tell her what's up...but I know I won't do it. How do I get over this. I have been interviewing for another job, but if that doesnt work, how do I go on while working with him. Why should I care if he wants his ex back? It's just so hard to see him in the halls and not be able to talk to him. And our office is small.., Does anyone have any advice? I just don't know what to do anymore....