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thanks to all the amazing responses thus far responding to the post on how he will support himself otherwise... "john" is only 22. he's still in college and is supported by his parents. this summer he had a part time job (apart from escorting) and an internship. he said he escorted for the "thrill of it and just needed someone "to catch him and tell him what he was doing was wrong" he comes from a relatively upper-middle class background and he said the appeal of escorting was to do something so out of character that none of his friends or family would ever expect. i know he doesn't have a drug problem so that's not a problem.

Hi everyone, I just came accross this site and I really hope it helps. I recently found myself in a horrible, horrible position. I came home to San Francisco from college on the east coast for an internship in the city, while living at home with my parents. I came out to my parents in May and they completely flipped out, not accepting it and placing me in Christian Counseling in the hopes of converting me into a heterosexual. Miserable and lonely I met "John" on the Internet; he was a student at a local university and when we met for the first time there was an immediate spark. He helped me with the issues with my parents and was there for me for the entire summer. I was completely in love and really dreading the point at which I would return to college. However, this all changed when I found an advertisement stating that John wasn't the person I thought he was. He was a male escort and received money to perform sexual acts on men! He even had reviews online from his "customers." I got sick to my stomach, nauseous and completely betrayed. When I confronted John he told me that it was a VERY small part of life; that he never had intercourse with any of them but conceded that he had on average met 2 men a month for the past year but that he stopped once he met me and that he really, really cared for me and wanted to get out of this lifestyle. I thought about it ad nauseam and after talking to my friends decided that I had to break it off with him, which I did about a week ago. Since then I've just been completely miserable. I can't sleep or eat and a major part of me wants to go against my friends and rational and get back with him and just believe him when he says that meeting me was the turning point for him. In sense I just don't know what to do. Thanks.