First post but I'm hoping someone can help. About 3-4 months ago, I think I found out my boyfriend went on a weekend trip with his ex and some friends. The reason I say "I think" is because he's never come out and said he went. We had gotten in a fight before he went on this trip and so we didn't talk the whole weekend and he was supposed to be on a work trip. I tried to call him but he never returned my calls. Finally on the last day I called him from a friends house and he answered but kept saying "hello!, hello!" like he couldn't hear me. I got really upset after that because I thought he was still mad at the little fight we got into. He ended up calling me later that day and when I asked him, he said he wasn't getting reception where he was at so he couldn't hear me.
He took me out that night and we had a good time and everything was cool for about a week and we were having lunch one day and he flipped open his planner and on the weekend he was supposed to have been on the work trip, he had written Mexico and his ex's name. I asked him about it and he made up a super lame excuse and we didn't talk for a couple of days and then we finally talked it out and he swore it wasn't what it looked like.
Thats been a few months ago and even though I have told him I believe him and we have moved on (doing well by the way), I can't get the thought of the two of them together out of my head. I'm almost like 75% sure that it is exactly what it looked like. And then everytime he says he's working at night or on a weekend or something, I always wonder if it's the truth. Even if he went and it was innocent, he lied to me. How can I get these ugly thoughts out of my head and move past this? It's funny because if I call him and for some reason can't get a hold of him, in the back of my head, I start to imagine things and the longer it takes him to call me back the madder I get and by the time I talk to him, I'm fuming and ready to kill him even if there's a very logical explanation for him not calling. It's so frustrating.
