Why am i so miserable? I was born alone and, i guess, that i am destined to die alone. I am more than deserving of loce, but still, i receive none. Somehow, people like me, people that have never known happiness or safety or love will never know it and only receive loneliness as recompense. Yet, someone who has lived a life of pure happiness, never aware of the stinging pain of anguish or the cold dagger of loneliness - receives love that he does not deserve. Why must I go unloved and utterly alone? Why does god let this happen? angst and misery are my only companions. no girl has ever expressed any feeling of love or even feel the least bit attracted to me. what is wrong with me? Im good looking and not a jerk or anything, so why am i always alone? whilst all the othere guys my age - im 15 by the way - have already found someone who cares about them, i have not, and i am sure that i may never find her. The sorrow that i feel is becoming a void that is engulfing my heart and devouring my soul. I will be lost forever soon, i can feel il constricting the life from me as i write this. the pain never goes away. never. it is a burden that no one should bear. i do not wish it on my worst enemies. i do not want to die unloved and unmourned, it is my greatest fear. i also dont want to live like this anymore. i simply cannot go on living like this : alone, unloved, miserable, lonely, unwanted, and unhappy. Sadly, i fear that i have no control over this, its in fates hands. i know that fate will have me destroyed. fate has been cruel to me, made me who i am today.
