My girlfriend of four years (nearly to the day) broke up with me around 4 weeks ago. At the time she said she wasnt sure of how she felt anymore and that she didn't know if she still felt the same about us, yet she said she still loved me. I begged her not to do it and spent the first two weeks in virtual mourning. I met her about a week after we broke up and realised that there was no chance of changing her mind in the meantime.
She said that she needed space and needed time to realise that I was what she wanted. I was getting over it until a few nights back when we spoke in the phone (we had spoken a number of times but not that much about 'us'). It turned out she had been out with a guy in her work. We then ended up speaking for four hours that night, where we laughed, cried and basically were as close as ever. Agian she still said she needed time and was happy the way things were going. i completely made a mess of things the following day, bombarding her with emails and texts, maing the assumption that after realising how close we still were she would want me back. I just overreacted. We spoke the next night and I told her if I ever met the guy she was with I'd thump him. She got upset again and I can't help thinking I've messed it up!
We'd dated all the way through uni and have been as close as two people can get. We did get on each others nerves at times, and I know I could have been a much better boyfried; she was one of the kindest most thoughful people you could meet, whereas while I try I'm just not that good at that kind of thing.
e both started new jobs after graduating (about 6 months ago) and we were much more independent that at any stage in our relationship. We were also each other's first serious partners, in her case she'd never kissed anyone else till she met me. (This makes her kissing a guy after 2 weeks of being single even harder to take).
I don't know what to do, or what's going to happen. I love her more than anything I've ever in life. I'm so scared of losing her forever. She says no matter what we'll still be best friends, but I don't think I could cope with her being with anyone else, and while I'd be losing my best friend, I think it really would be the only way.
I wonder if given time she'll realise what we had was amazing, and I really believe she'll never be as close to anyone, nor will find anyone who loves her as much as I do. What to do?
