raf1992

So I have a story about being a dumper and regretting breaking up. It’s not the success story though. So 4 years ago I broke up with my ex I was devastated for 4 months when I met a girl. I thought to myself that I like her and maybe it will help me with forgetting about the last girl. So we started dating, talking a lot and she became my GF. First 6 months of relationship were really great, we were in love even though I never said those words to her. But after those 6 months I started to have a lot of problems with my company, it was going bankrupt and all. So I gained weight like a lot, maybe 25 kg. And the next 2 years of relationship we’re really bad, yet she was always supportive, trying to find a way to make it work. She was an angel. Truly an angel cause mind you I was really a horrible boyfriend. Like I have to admit i feel disgusted by my behavior But I was depressed I could see she’s not happy either. So I broke up with her. She was crying a lot, but not begging. For 6 months she was calling me once a month to ask how was I. It was always a nice chat. Nothing else. I had no feelings left for her or so I thought. Because one day, after 8 months, I just woke up and realized she is a love of my life. The best girl there is. And I would do anything to get back with her. Started slowly. But she’s completely not interested. I’m texting her, she’s mostly ignoring my messages, sometimes she replies. Doesn’t want to meet. Once she said she wants to have a good contact with me, so I asked if it means only as a friend, but she never answered. She’s not telling me to stop texting her or anything. She just doesn’t care. But well, I don’t care. I can’t use NC anyway after 8 months if I want her back so I will be persistent. Everyday now I send her a message that says good morning love and I add one memory of what I miss or have loved from our relationship. No answers but I can see she reads those messages instantly, while other messages like do you want to meet are left unread for several hours. Mind you she didn’t block me and never said to stop texting her, even when I asked (though she didn’t reply either ) Anyway, I’m the dumper, I came back after 7 months and I’ve been fighting to get her back for 4 months already. I told her I’m going to fight for her until she is after her weeding. And these are not empty words. I will fight for her, because she’s the love of my life.