Well first off let me say that I'm starting not to believe in love anymore. About 2 months ago my boyfriend of 3 years came home one night after disappearing for a day. Never called, was worried sick about him and finally he showed up. He looked me in the eyes and said "I cheated on you 6 months ago, and now the girl that I had cheated on you with is pregnant with twins, and they are mine." I was so shocked and dismayed and practically fainted. We were talking about getting married, having kids ourselves. We were in the process of getting a house together so I was trying to help him build his credit so we could have the life we always had and I made the horrific mistake of co-signing on a car for him. These two months have not been easy for me. He gave the car back to me and said it's in your hands now. I'm paying for two cars. He owes me around 2000.00 dollars of borrowed money, which he says he is going to pay me back, but I have not seen or been giving anything. He wants to remain friends with me but I still have a deep love for him. He calls me all the time and says, "if I could have it my way, you would be having the kids for me and we would be getting married. I am not attracted to the girl I cheated on you with but I have to do the right thing for my kids so I can be there everyday when they wake up and when the go to sleep. This is all for my kids and has nothing to do with her. I can't stand being around her, we have nothing in common. I love and miss you dearly but I can't be with you".
This conversation has been an ongoing thing for about 1 month now. We have talked about reconciling, but he says I have to see if the kids are mine first.
I was just wondering if there is anyone out there that can give me some advice on what to do. I love him, and there is that part of me that feels we can work it out in time. And there is that other part of me that feels like I should just pick up and move on with my life but how? Any advice for a broken, confused, miserable heart would be great.
