I am currently on Day 5 of NC after a somewhat amicable break up with my partner of 5 years. He cried and told me that we had too many fundamental differences and that we were not right for each other although he still cared for me deeply and that I will always be special to him. He said that he wished things weren't this way but our personalities just are not compatible. I understand that I need to move on but because our relationship was very on and off (he was the one to break it off every time), I am struggling to believe that this is completely over. I am terrified at the thought of never speaking to or seeing him again.
