SuzyMacQ

I have to start again. I sent him a Skype message in response to his call the night before. I retrieved the message after I sent it because it made me feel terrible. But I have to still co0nsider it contact so I'll start again. I just want to be done with it and get on with my life. Today is a new day!

Day 1 Completed! He phoned me on Skype but I didn't have it turned on so I missed the call. I'm confused as to why he would call me there. Maybe just testing me to see if I mean it this time. I guess if he really wanted to reach me he would have phoned my cell, which I have on silence all the time so I will miss that call too. Feeling hopeful today. I have found some comfort from this site. As much as I don't wish for anyone to go through this, it's nice to know you're not alone.

Day 1 I will accept this challenge. I just finished writing a lengthy thread on this site, but I think it's lost. Even still, it made me feel better writing some of those things. Last night I told my alcoholic bf to stop contacting me. I've done this before and we did manage 28 days but this time I want it to stick. He's not abusive or anything where there is danger. He's just incapable of loving me and I have to come to terms with that. So here we go. Good luck everyone!