misstinkerbell

I had doubts too about the relationship because it was long distance (a 9-hr flight) but at least I was willing to give it a shot. Working through differences, compromise, and accepting that everyone is different is what I think builds an emotional bond / relationship that lasts. I suppose at the end of the day, he just didn't love me enough. His gut feeling was more important than me. I'm so sorry this happened to you. I can feel your pain reading your posts. It's hard to deal when the other person who stole your heart told you you stole her/his heart and then one day, poof, they're gone, hanging you out to dry instead of working things out together. Please take care of yourself. You want to be strong enough to be there for your baby down the road. My thoughts are with you.

Day 8. Feeling miserable and depressed. Missing him like crazy... Even the supposedly fun series I'm watching, those that I used to like - the words they say, the name they use, remind me of him...

Day 7. Today has been hard. Couldn't stop the tears from running down throughout the day. I miss him soooo much and I really want him back. Just can't stop thinking about him... That said I also know that unless he changes his mentality, unless he wants us to be in the same place (either he moves or I move), we won't last even if we get back together... I mean I'm sorry for the part I played in the breakup, but then again, if he put in more effort into the LDR and was a bit more attentive, I would have acted differently... What was your ex's reaction to the letter?

I won't initiate contact. And we're in a LDR so I won't bump into him either... To be honest, I'm sorry but in a way I'm not. I was really sick for a while, in a LDR, so yes, I might have been a bit emotional, cried sometimes on the phone and wanted a little more TLC from him, but I was understanding and never bombarded him messages or calls (hardly any calls in fact). Never nagged him either besides telling him that I missed him... Was I really expecting too much from him?

Day 6. Busy day at work, but been thinking a lot about the reason(s) (those he said and didn't say) to the breakup. Was also thinking about the mistakes I made too. Very tempted to break no contact and tell him I'm sorry for the mistakes I made in the relationship without asking for another chance between us, but I guess it's just too soon to say anything...

Day 5. I still don't know what exactly made him thinks there's no spark between us when he convinced me otherwise before. And I still don't know why he can think there's no future between us based on his gut feeling, when we haven't given it a try and work things out. I'm still devastated, yet I know there's no point of me contacting him...